Excerpt Reveal: WATCHING THE SKY CRY by J.B. Hartnett
I never really appreciated
the businesses open 24/7 until I stopped going out when the sun was up. But I’d
come to find this necessity such a relief, I was close to sending the good
people at Thrifty Corporate offices a thank you note. I could leave my house at
midnight and buy a big-ass bottle of quality gin, a pint of the best mint
chocolate chip ice cream in the world, and a jumbo-sized bottle of weed killer.
The guy at the cash
register made a point of eyeing my products. So much so, for a split second, I
wondered if I’d forgotten to wear pants. He had an obnoxious, patronizing smirk
plastered to his face when he asked, “Big night planned?”
His customer service skills
left a lot to be desired, and I was in no mood to take shit from anyone. So, I
gave it to him honestly.
“Oh yeah,” I enthused,
trying to remember if I’d brushed my teeth that day. “First,” I said holding up
a single finger, “I’m gonna get drunk. Second,” I continued with two fingers
and noticed he was staring at my chest, “I’m gonna murder the plant my husband
gave to me.” That’s about the time his eyes met mine again. “And for my big
finale,” I patted the tub of ice-cream lovingly, “I’m gonna eat my feelings.”
He had no response,
whatsoever, to my smartass comments or manner, so I took my items, leaned in on
my elbows, and gave him some solid, retail advice. “You know, it’s just a
normal Saturday night for any single girl. Put these three items on a primary
end-cap and sales will soar.”
Again, he didn’t find me
funny.
I thought I was fucking hilarious.
A few hours later, I was on
my fourth homemade Grey Goose cocktail. This consisted of gin and Diet Coke,
because these were the things I had in the house. Not to mention the jar of
maraschino cherries, which made for a lovely garnish.
Sometime after my third
drink, I’d gotten into Nick’s CDs. With cocktail number four in hand, I stood
in my front yard, Don’t Stop Believing
blaring through the open windows—on repeat—and looked at the mess I’d made. My
previous plan for the night was to simply shut my broken heart up by drowning
it in liquor, then drowning that plant with poison. I thought…if I killed the
plant, I could somehow move on from the pain. But the closer I got to home, my
plan morphed into something a little more…sinister. The gin helped, of course,
but I had two years of livid, confused emotions I’d denied for far too long,
chomping at the bit for release.
I walked into the shed and
saw the area dedicated to the care of that plumeria. I filled the wheelbarrow
with big sheers and a shovel. My intention to release the plant from the earth
was foiled by rock-hard soil which required me to soften it up with a little water.
While a shallow pond formed around my flip-flop clad feet, I gave the offensive
blooms their last trim and final rites.
“Forever’s a long time,
isn’t it, little flowers? I bet you thought that nice man would take care of
you until the end of time?” Then I opened the bottle of weed killer and poured
it on top of the neat pile of blooms. “Wrong, wrong, wrong!” I said, shaking my
head as I bathed them in poison.
I don’t know which one of
my concerned neighbors called the cops. But if it had been me, and I knew what
happened to that poor woman in the blue house, even if it had been two whole
years, I would have minded my own fucking business and hoped she only had one
night of power ballads in her
But sadly, no such luck.
The flash of blue and red lights in my periphery reminded me what I hated about
my neighborhood: around here, no one wanted to get involved in anyone else’s
business. No one warned you to move your car before you got that ticket on
street sweeping day. Everyone seemed to be suspicious of everyone else. When I
was growing up, my brother and I spent summers and some holidays at our aunt
and uncle’s place outside of Guerneville. Even now, with Johnny-Law
approaching, I recalled how my uncle left in the middle of dinner one night
because the neighbor’s truck needed to be pulled from a ditch. He didn’t ask
the guy if he’d called Triple A. He said, “Be right there, buddy.” That’s the
kind of place I wanted to live. Somewhere with kind, considerate neighbors.
I wouldn’t even think of
asking my neighbors for a cup of sugar. Not that they’d answer the door. But
this was all good, because these seemingly-small things were the catalyst to
change. It was that very moment when I realized I needed to move. Not just from
the house, but from Southern California. As soon as the thought drifted into my
head, I realized how relieved it would make my parents. They’d watched me go
through the motions, but I couldn’t move on if I stayed here. Everywhere I
went, everything I did, had some kind of connection to Nick and my life with
him.
Finally, I was met with the
phrase, “Ma’am, we’ve had some calls from your neighbors…” After that, I tuned
out and answered “yes” or “no” to their questions when it was warranted. As
intoxicated as I was, I managed to rein in my gin-surliness in order to avoid
incarceration. But there was a small crowd gathered on my sidewalk. These same
people had likely watched from afar while my life fell apart and did not one
thing to offer help.
When I looked at the older
couple that lived next door, I moved closer, close enough they’d be able to
hear me and anyone else nearby. I used to drop a plate of cookies on their
doorstep every Christmas, but not once had they thanked me.
“You’ve seen the entire
show, haven’t you?” I asked quietly, not wanting the officer to hear. But the
old man just kept hold of his wife and stared beyond me. But I knew he was the
“man,” the “husband,” the half-of-a-whole I’d never have again. “You watched
from your porch while a black limousine parked in front of my house. You
would’ve seen me collapse, wracked with so much pain, my dad and brother had to
carry me to the car. I came home to an empty house, stopped answering the door,
and never, not once, did you come to offer a kind word. You saw us together,” I
whispered. “We should’ve been you…and lucky, you’ve had a lifetime together.
Think about that the next time you rob a woman of her grief.”
“Ma’am,” the officer
started behind me.
“Shame on you,” I said and
walked away.
I went back to my house,
ignoring the officer who followed, and walked inside. I turned off the stereo
and closed the windows. Then I returned to the officer waiting on my front
porch. “I just need to shut the water off, and I’m all done for the night.”
He didn’t seem at all
satisfied with my cooperation. “Is there someone we can call for you?” He made
a point of looking at my hand. “Your husband?”
Two years… two, and I still
hadn’t taken off my wedding rings.
“I’ve gone back to my
maiden name, Officer.” I hoped that would be explanation enough.
He looked to his partner
and nodded. Whatever that was meant to convey, I had no idea. But he handed me
a business card. “If you need me, Miz…”
“Truscott. Rylie,
Truscott.”
He closed the distance
between us and warily glanced behind him. “If you need me,” he said quietly,
“you give me a call. I’m only a few blocks away.”
“I assure you, I won’t have
any reason to call.”
Then he stepped a little
closer. “Please don’t do anything stupid.”
His words weren’t meant to
insult me, in fact, they communicated genuine concern he seemed to feel for a
fellow human, and for that, gratitude welled up in me and formed in my eyes.
“I won’t do anything
stupid. I promise,” I said and looked at the house, “I’m done here.”
And I meant every word.
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Ten years
is a long time when you’re thirty-two. We’d seen our share of ups and downs,
but I could honestly say, they were mostly up. That’s the thing about happiness
though. It lulls you into a false sense of security.
Neither
one of us ever thought we’d ever be touched by crippling loss or immeasurable
grief. But not all stories have a happy ending, and I knew, better than anyone,
that sometimes, one of you won’t make it till the end. One of you has to go
first. And one of you will be left behind to pick up the pieces.
That one
is me.
But
starting over isn’t what I thought it would be. I need escape from the memories
that plague me, remind me. So I went back to where it all began. To the town
where I was born. To the place whose beauty could pierce my pain. Where I
experienced my first kiss, where I fell in love, where a man was my earth. And
I…
I was his
sky.
Julie is
a southern California native, a fan of a really good story (preferably a
romance with a happily ever after), really good pie (preferably pumpkin)and
copious amounts of coffee (preferably Folgers).
She has
always enjoyed writing and at one time thought she might be a
singer/songwriter. The 'writer' part is that one that stuck.
Julie is
obsessed with Pi...the equation and the food. She's allergic to cats,
cantaloupe and hates mushrooms. So if you ever want to give her a gift, those
are out for sure.
She
currently lives with her romance hero husband and two boys in Melbourne,
Australia.
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